decision made

Soooooooo i've decided to go ITE and taking private Os for the first year!

i know some people will not be supportive of me doing that and some will because they understand my fear, ohwell. I just hope that my friends will still love me and my family wont feel disgraced because of me.

I will choose this route cos :

1.I've no (in fact is 0) confidence for my Os
2.I dont wanna land in a situation where after my sec 5, i've no where to go and but to ITE again.
3.I think i've lost the mugger spirit

K, ITE is like a BACKUP PLAN for myself.
it's like i do well for my private Os then i will bid goodbye to ITE for Poly :)
if i didnt, i will just suck it up and continue my ITE year 2. At least, i still can go poly with my ITE certificate right?

BUT BUT BUT. its just me that i feel like im a disgrace to everyone around me. (whenever i talk about will get so emotional, which is so not me.) especially to my dad like ppl ask 'where's your daughter schooling?' 'oh, she's in ITE''ITE? my daughter in JC/Poly/whatever elite school'. get the WTF feeling?! I WANT MY PARENTS TO BE SO DAMN FUCKING PROUD OF ME.

However, i thank god for understand family members, i really love them.

Dad said ''its your choice, you know that i have never set any expectations or stress you all (my sis and I) in studies, as long as you girls have done your best and it's ok if you both dont do well. papa not old fashion kind. but you girls must give you your best and dont go astray will do. for that im really very satisfied already. What's done cant be undone, no point forcing it. just work hard in ITE and one year will pass very fast''

Joey mummy said ''girl its your choice, i wont force you. as long as you know whats right for you and the best for you then do it. the family will be supporting you behind''

ALSO, friends who have my back or even doesnt have my back (i understand their worries and doubts).

I feel really loved by everyone, thankq so much for your advises and all. <3~~~

I swear this is the last time im talking about this, im really tired of my sleepless night pondering over this hard decision. So, dont bothering talking about it because today is the last day for submission of the application form and i will submit mine shortly after this post. :)

anyhows, im still contemplating whether should i trade in my iphone 4 for blackberry? since i have a ipad oleadi? and should i change my number? or retain my number? cos like my number so nice like golden number only swee swee one!

OK SO, WHO'S GOING HIGHER NITEC BUSINESS STUDIES UNDER ADMINISTRATION?
HI, I WILL BE YOUR COURSE MATE, IM FRIENDLY OK. HEHEHEH.

till then, xx.

p/s: so sorry for the very wordy post lately.