decision made

Soooooooo i've decided to go ITE and taking private Os for the first year!

i know some people will not be supportive of me doing that and some will because they understand my fear, ohwell. I just hope that my friends will still love me and my family wont feel disgraced because of me.

I will choose this route cos :

1.I've no (in fact is 0) confidence for my Os
2.I dont wanna land in a situation where after my sec 5, i've no where to go and but to ITE again.
3.I think i've lost the mugger spirit

K, ITE is like a BACKUP PLAN for myself.
it's like i do well for my private Os then i will bid goodbye to ITE for Poly :)
if i didnt, i will just suck it up and continue my ITE year 2. At least, i still can go poly with my ITE certificate right?

BUT BUT BUT. its just me that i feel like im a disgrace to everyone around me. (whenever i talk about will get so emotional, which is so not me.) especially to my dad like ppl ask 'where's your daughter schooling?' 'oh, she's in ITE''ITE? my daughter in JC/Poly/whatever elite school'. get the WTF feeling?! I WANT MY PARENTS TO BE SO DAMN FUCKING PROUD OF ME.

However, i thank god for understand family members, i really love them.

Dad said ''its your choice, you know that i have never set any expectations or stress you all (my sis and I) in studies, as long as you girls have done your best and it's ok if you both dont do well. papa not old fashion kind. but you girls must give you your best and dont go astray will do. for that im really very satisfied already. What's done cant be undone, no point forcing it. just work hard in ITE and one year will pass very fast''

Joey mummy said ''girl its your choice, i wont force you. as long as you know whats right for you and the best for you then do it. the family will be supporting you behind''

ALSO, friends who have my back or even doesnt have my back (i understand their worries and doubts).

I feel really loved by everyone, thankq so much for your advises and all. <3~~~

I swear this is the last time im talking about this, im really tired of my sleepless night pondering over this hard decision. So, dont bothering talking about it because today is the last day for submission of the application form and i will submit mine shortly after this post. :)

anyhows, im still contemplating whether should i trade in my iphone 4 for blackberry? since i have a ipad oleadi? and should i change my number? or retain my number? cos like my number so nice like golden number only swee swee one!

OK SO, WHO'S GOING HIGHER NITEC BUSINESS STUDIES UNDER ADMINISTRATION?
HI, I WILL BE YOUR COURSE MATE, IM FRIENDLY OK. HEHEHEH.

till then, xx.

p/s: so sorry for the very wordy post lately.

Another point in life

Result day is less than 12 hours to go. Different images just floating on my mind, im so afraid.

I know everytime i said im prepared and expected the worst already but actually my heart is feeling the pull and pressure kinda feeling. 

cos im afraid that i will never have a bright future
im afraid to be poor
im afraid to be jobless in future
im afraid that i will not be able to provide my family in future
im afraid that i will disappoint my love ones
im afraid that i didnt met my goals
im afraid about EVERYTHING.

However, there's nothing i can do right now. whats done already done. So be it the result, i have nothing to say but to accept it cos afterall i have already give in my best shots. no regrets.

Frankly, i would not wanna go ITE. the environment and the people there is so different, i cant accept. however, if i have to go there i will or in fact must adapt. all in the name of myself and my character. 

Currently, i can only cross my fingers that my result will allow me to continue and able to convince myself that i am ready to take up Os. cos i dont wanna landed up in the situation where i cant go anywhere and back to square one, ITE, again. 

On a side note, good luck to every candidates in Singapore <3~

Enough of my emo nemo-ish.

anyways, CHRISTMAS is COMING and SOON to NEW YEAR!

(time doesn't wait for us, we gotta catch it and manage it)

I have yet to go for Christmas present shopping, will prolly do it next week since im leave with no working slot!

Dolls please stay tuned. xoxo

P/S: I'M A STRONG GIRL REGARDLESS IT'S IN PHYSICAL TERM OR MENTAL TERM.

All at a go

1. Happy Birthday to myself! yay, im officially 16 no more 15+.

12am on 6th December receive severals love from many people and loads of love from fb & twitter the next following day as well! thankq all of you so much.

Had two mini celebration, one with my 3 best CD accompany and another with my mum's side :)
With my 3 good company @ awfully chocolate!

Dinner with my mum's side

pardon my super oily (due to the medicated cream) and red face.

Summing up my day, my mini day :) 

My sis brought this for me <3

Polaroid pictures of the day.

2. Met up with my BFF and BF

So i met up with leong leong for a shopping spree and also Jaime for a shopping spree

 1 for 1 starbucks christmas drink!

 DONT DROOL HOR.

Didnt have any camwhore pix with Jaime cos we were walking the whole entire, YES IM FUCKING SERIOUS. 

Shall share with you all my new babies <3~

 & hell yeah i finally got the studed pumps which is Christian Louboutin inspired one! heheheh.

 Loving the tassels, made the shoes seems so expensive.

 yes the one i was complaining on twitter that it cost $66 @ Topshop, $60 @ New Look and $39.90 @ Cotton On. i got it $28 @ CP. hwahwahwa.

 How could i leave out brown with such a steal price?

4 babies.

 Left to Right by Rows : Burgundy maxi from Fyn. Nude skater dress with lace peter pan collar from Earl Grey Party. Topshop inspired maroon velvet dress from CP. Cream leather A line dress from Fyn. Burgundy leather A line dress from Fyn. ASOS inspired dress in orange from Hey Adonia. Rust dress with leathered collar from C&K. Black bodycon dress with gold detail from C&K.

 Left to Right by Rows : Vintage velvet boyfriend shirt from Koreanish store at Bugis street. Red velvet romper from Earl Grey Party. Black furry top from C&K.

3. OT and supper with my bunch of awesome workmates!

                                      

Bron aka half brandon, i knew you since the first time im at hyatt! thankq for being such nice friend, i will miss you very badly when you are back in Malaysia :'( i will really do. hurhur... 

anyway, HAVE A BLAST TOMORROW AYE! i will remember you for life cos your birthday is 10 days away from mine. <3~~~ love you, xoxo.

 Darlie thankq for hold on to my phone, me lurb you! <3

 Silly girl I love you for those h2h talk <3~~~ and i love the fact that you are noisy that keeps me accompany through working time and time just fly fast with you around.

 Adrain with full of cool chinese sentence which i cant even handle.

 Pweety Zhao Yuan.

BZ hai! 

Ritchelle this super friendly girl! thankq for calling up @ 12, <3

Mervin the long man. thankq for being mean and bitchy to me, it kinda entertain me alot! hahahaha. and also i won forget you for your own accent! oh, own you one eye brow pencil! 

5. Frank Card

people who follow me on twitter prolly knew i spaz alot about this but time didnt allow me to summit my form yet. AND AND AND! the design i chosen is like everywhere at train stations so i decided to change. do tell me which is nicer kk!

I CANT DECIDE OMG!

Alright, this is a super long post. shall end with a cool pix of my completed heart and my current activity!

Till then xoxo.

Sinful Cravings

Just a random sharing of my top chart wish list <3~

Anna Karin Karlsson Kitten Noir Black

Proenza Schouler Keep All Large Leather In Burgundy

Michael Kors Tortoise Chronograph Watch

Maybe i should treat myself to the Michael Kors Watch near to the new year/chinese new year!

Oh, MK crashed Singapore recently at Scotts Square so i can get my hands on this baby before deciding as well. Hell yeah!

Notthing much going recently other than my skin problem which is a totally destruction to me :'(

I can't go work, I can't (dont want) to get out of my home, I can't go under the sun, I can't makeup.

sigh, just like a poor birdy locked in the cage :'( depressed much!

Alright, enough of my whining. Till then, xoxo <3~~~

On a side note, to my beloved mom and QQ to have a speedy recover!